Reflection Of The Past

It's been ages since i sat down like now typing a blog entry.
So many things have happened, all too quick for me to jot them down.
Resulting the fluster right here; right now.
Can't imagine how fast time really flies~

Everything just happened in a wink.

Happy moments; Sad moments....

it all came at one go, i got myself getting on with it~

Moving on in life.

Be it in the areas of relationship, academic or even family ties~

there is improvements at the same time there is strained feelings between one another~

should i be happy or upset?

I really don't know.

Each time i think i would be happy,

but all that hopes came crashing down in the end~

and vice-versa.

This time after being exhausted of everything,

unexpectedly~

in this whole picture...

i had it~

Am taking the risk or should i say, one more chance for love~

I hope this time round it will really be different.

Otherwise, i really am not gonna now what am i suppose to do or even to move on furthermore.

Because i am risking all the cost depite of a already heavily wounded heart~

To survive,

i've tried looking for all kinds of job~

did some for a period of time,

yet i couldn't manage to stay at it for long due to certain reasons~

am still in the misst of job hunting,

and it is my only way of my means of survival.

Moreover, i've spent too much on unworthy people,

people whom hurt me so deeply like hell~

At times i really don't know who can i run to or even to trust~

Total upset with how things are or were and yet i could do nothing to change anything~

Am sucha big failure for that!

I am ranting on and on so far,

i seriously do not know where should start or even end~

Life, screw life.

It sucks totally,

but the only reason that makes me happy for now,

is only him. (: